Maximillian Amadeus Banzai (banzai) wrote,
Maximillian Amadeus Banzai

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Feel like I'm waking up just a bit from my deep, deep funk-- a great thing. I moan and groan about work, about relationships, about everything under the sun, but deep down, it's all been a spiritual struggle. When I'm choosing to try to live far from God (and He sure knows I've been trying), there's no life in me, and daily living becomes a living hell. I'm glad He's faithful, because I'm not, and I'm glad He pursues me, because I sure like to get lost.

Today I've spent lots of time on clean up, internal and external. It feels good, feels awake, feels alive. There are many more miles to go, but I see the road, I'm on it, and most of all, I'm never, ever alone.

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