Maximillian Amadeus Banzai (banzai) wrote,
Maximillian Amadeus Banzai

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Wherein you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while, if need be, you have been put to grief in various trials, that the proof of your faith, which is more precious than gold that perishes even though it is tested by fire, may be found to result in praise and glory and honor at the revelation of Jesus Christ -- whom not having known you love; on whom, though now you don't see him, yet believing, you rejoice greatly with joy unspeakable and full of glory -- receiving the end of your faith, the salvation of your souls.

-1 Peter 1:6-9

Struck by this not because of any trial I'm experiencing, but because the idea of having joy in the salvation of my soul is at once resonant and absent in my spirit. I'm so caught up in the daily mix of busyness, sin, and self that this is lost in the shuffle. Beautiful, simple, elegant, true. Let me be satisfied in it, in Him. That would change me.

Haven't written about my Thanksgiving plans. They'll sound insane to anyone who doesn't understand introverts, and possibly strange to those as well (I'm comfortable with them, however). I'm staying home alone, and I'm so excited!

In past years, I've spent Thanksgiving at the Johnsons, along with the Drurys and Connor. Now that the Johnsons have moved, the rest of us made other plans. I was going to join the Willises and the Millers: equal parts "this will be fun" and "I know I should build my relationships with these friends." It would have been good, but not necessarily comfortable. Well, their plans have changed, so my options were to join them at the Sums or to accept the Allens' invitation (the Sellers invited, too, but they changed plans as well). Instead, I'm happily going with none of the above.

The hospitality and love extended to me through these invitations is deeply appreciated and moving. I feel loved. I'm keeping my plans private, not wanting to offend or communicate any lack of gratitude for the invites. But these are all friendships still outside my comfort zone, and the idea of a weekend off from people makes my heart leap. So I'm taking it.

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