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A life worth living

Our plans to go to San Francisco for Michael & Susan's wedding had to be scratched, which was a big bummer for both of us but couldn't be avoided with barlow_girl's work. The bright side (not always my forte) is some unexpected time margin I can use to recover from my cold, catch up on a few dozen things, and even possibly relax.

Sometimes having surprise margin puts me in a reflective frame of mind, perhaps because I haven't already loaded all the space in my schedule with busyness. Today, I'm probably pushed further in that direction by some major developments in the lives of those close to us—hard consequences of far more terrible actions. And so I'm faced with questions, good questions, and the space to consider them:
  • How do we decide how we're spending our lives, in whatever measure those decisions have been entrusted to us?
  • How do we stop hiding?
  • How do we open ourselves to be changed by God and to community with others?
  • How do we walk free of everything that would entangle us—not just the "bad" sins, but also our continual diversions and infatuation with our own "goodness" and "rightness"?
  • How do we lead well and follow well?

The life I'm imagining isn't dull; it's alive and vibrant. It's not full of religious jargon and an answer for everything. It has forgiveness and grace enough for the hugest of sins, so that we can both reveal them and face them in all their horror—no more denial out of fear of repercussions. We tell the truth and call things what they are. Our relationships are more than just vehicles for good times and mutual amusement, and we find our joy increased rather than lessened thereby. We engage. We love. We serve. We worship. We are a blessing to the world, even when it rejects us.

My life has been purchased with too precious a price not to strive for this.


i love you so much and am grateful to get to be in these questions with you.
Backatcha, sweetheart.
Very good questions. The first has to be answered in light of whatever service God has called us to, and how we can best glorify His name in our lives. Sometimes that does mean taking time out to rest & restore our souls. :)

To stop hiding, we must lose our fear of what will happen when we are exposed. We have to be willing to be vulnerable to some, so that we can be changed by God and have true community with others. That takes courage, and if we lack it, we must ask God to supply.

The last two are much deeper, and I won't attempt to answer them here!