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Ruth said, "Don't entreat me to leave you, and to return from following after you, for where you go, I will go; and where you lodge, I will lodge; your people shall be my people, and your God my God; where you die, will I die, and there will I be buried: Yahweh do so to me, and more also, if anything but death part you and me."
-Ruth 1:16-17

Now that's just beautiful. I want a friend like that.

Neck is feeling no better, so this is the obligatory whining. It's rainy and good to be up early. I was such a vegetable last night (a carrot, perhaps). Need more discipline in my life. It's a dangerous thing to acknowledge the need for discipline or humility. I need both-- Lord, have mercy.

I never trust when people say nice things, especially at work. Usually I think it's "trying to be nice," or rather, trying to have others believe one is nice. I'm not innocent by any means-- that's probably why I'm suspicious. I've done it over and over, to make myself feel good and to get what I want. My experience with niceness from others involves manipulation far more than it does affection.

I guess that's why I find the passage from Ruth so beautiful, like the friendship of David and Jonathan. Makes my heart ache for something like that. Hard to get when I tend not to believe I could really have it.


I could be that friend for you, if you'll let me. I promise.
You are steadfast-- thanks.
Of course. . .you shouldn't expect anything less out of someone who loves you.

What do you need? Want to start emailing? Sending true mail? Whatever you need to feel centered and needed and loved.

1 Samuel 20:42
Jonathan said to David, "Go in peace, for we have sworn friendship with each other in the name of the LORD, saying, `The LORD is witness between you and me, and between your descendants and my descendants forever.'"

I want to tend to you as Ruth to Naomi, as Jonathan to David. . .as I do all those I love. How can I, to best suit your needs and your heart?
I'm not sure what I need; it is good to know you are here.
It's strange you should be thinking about this just now - I've been pondering friendship for months now, reading about it, writing about it, trying to understand it. Have you read Lewis' The Four Loves? It helped me conceptualize a lot of vague notions that were running around my head.

The best friendships I have are ones I was never planning on. Fortunately, the Lord was looking out for me, knowing what I needed when I had no idea. Protection and provision I certainly didn't merit. I didn't think I could ever find someone who could understand me and enjoy my company. You don't have to believe it can happen for it to fall into your lap, thank goodness.
I haven't read it; maybe my next Jack outing after The Problem of Pain? Your recommendation carries weight for me. God's grace in friendship is good news-- Naomi wasn't expecting Ruth, and I'm certain David was surprised by Jonathan's devotion.

Come to think of it, your recent appearance on my friends' list was a surprise. Hmmmm...