frustratedSomehow, it'll all come together. I try to remind myself that God is sovereign, and that none of the details I'm fretting are a big deal in the big picture of what God is doing here.
I already hate this entry for its whininess and failure to capture what I'm feeling. I hate myself for the same reasons. I feel angry, tired, frustrated, depressed, overwhelmed, pressured, rushed. I want people to listen, think, plan, pay attention, understand, get to work, shut up, trust me, and/or leave me alone. I want things to work and to be quiet. I don't want to answer questions, especially if the person asking could just find or decide the answer themselves. I want phone and e-mail disconnected.
Nice attitude. Even better for a Christian, and better still for a church employee. I'm ashamed to be wrapped up in my own pity-party and temper tantrum. This is the storm inside me. It needs to be calmed or to pass.
