Maximillian Amadeus Banzai (banzai) wrote,
Maximillian Amadeus Banzai

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Tapped out

Body is fatigued and aching, for little to no apparent reason. Not good—I have a pub outing, a church intro seminar, and a bachelor party this weekend, plus work and worship all day Sunday. The fatigue is also mental and emotional. I'm continually frustrated with my weakness, my lack of energy, discipline, restraint, patience, love. It comes out as frustration with other things, but deep down, I really wish I had enough of these qualities just to keep up with life. It's such a good life; I just don't seem to have enough in me to live it well.

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