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Dan Savage was following me again last night, this time lurking at a table behind me in Vivace before Community Group. Go away, Dan Savage. Go away.

Just ordered a refurbished iBook to replace my ailing PowerBook (whose screen flicker has made it almost unviewable). Now that God has provided an incredible new iMac at the office, my laptop can be smaller and doesn't need to be that powerful. Going with a generation-old refurb saved me $300, and if all goes well I'll have it before heading off to Iowa for Christmas. In the absence of another travelling companion, it'll do.

Realized last night that I've fallen into the habit of praying about things I don't care about much and not praying about things for which I care deeply. Seems like something that would be readily apparent, but since I always have a supply of "safe" things to pray about, I just slid into this pattern and have been keeping my heart at a distance from God. I don't want Him to disappoint me.


So your coming to Iowa for Christmas?
Yup—my folks live near Ottumwa and my sister and brother-in-law are in Des Moines.
I don't know if you are going to have a lot of time or really what I'm doing around Christmas but if your around and I'm around I would totaly be up for meeting you. I know you don't know me well but I feel really bad for intentionaly ignoring you while in Seattle (I hope you know I'm joking) and jellous that so many others got to meet you and not me!

I would love to! I'd be surprised if I'm able to this trip, though: I won't have transportation of my own and will only be around for three days (I get in late Tuesday the 21st and leave first thing Christmas morning).

I may come back in February for my nephew's birthday...but you may be gone then!
My time is kind of filling up as well. I have to go to Detroit on the 22nd or 23rd and the day before that all hell is breaking loose.


Maybe next time.
I don't want Him to disappoint me.

though i understand that . . .
. . . it made me think of this.
Matthew 7:9-11
“Which of you, if his son asks for bread, will give him a stone? Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a snake? If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him!

I think sometimes I avoid asking HIM for things for the same reason. I'll just tell myself it's not likely to happen, and maybe not even because of GOD. "That's just the way it is." I've also avoided asking for things, or taken back things I asked simply because I was worried that I was asking things that weren't in HIS will or right for me. Either way, HE does say to ask. Might as well ask and then leave it up to HIM, keeping HIM the reason for living and not what it is you're asking.
Thanks for your encouragement.
You're welcome.
And thank you for the encouragement I find almost daily in your journal.
Well, thank HIM more.
never having read mister savage's work, i had to stop with the fallacious arguments right here:
The truly revolutionary promise of our nation's founding document is the freedom to pursue happiness-with-a-capital-H. Unfortunately, this promise is considered problematic by some Americans. The very pursuits that make some Americans happy (some very happy indeed) are considered downright sinful by social conservatives.
Wikipedia. What a cool site. Thanks for the link.

And today is the 24th anniversary of the death of John Lennon. Should we all light a match and wave it back and forth above our head and sing .. "all we are saying ... "

"I don't want Him to disappoint me."

I'm at this place far too often. It's a good time to remember, He's for us, not against us.

I can relate to your last paragraph!
Welcome back and congratulations, Mrs. Mills!
techno geek. (I love using DJ's laptop in random locations. It's truly fun.)

Funny thing, I don't worry much about being disappointed myself-- maybe because I seldom hope for anything specific-- but I'm always praying that other people won't be disappointed by God. From an objective, outside point of view, the ways in which God works just don't look very satisfactory.

Being concerned with God's reputation is a great place to be. All the amazing prayers begin there. It's a central part of ancient faith that's lost on so many of us.