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Jesus said, "I have given you an example, that you should do as I have done to you" (John 13:15). Notice the kind of people that God brings around you, and you will be humiliated once you realize that this is actually His way of revealing to you the kind of person you have been to Him. Now He says we should exhibit to those around us exactly what He has exhibited to us.

Oswald Chambers, My Utmost for His Highest (11 September, "Missionary Weapons")


Whoa.

It doesn't even take this kind of revelation to see the kind of pig I've been toward God lately, but it certainly drives the point home. From morning onward, this day has carried an undertone of hypocrisy's sting—I've talked this way; I've walked the other. When I'm this tired of myself, it's hard to believe that He isn't, much less believe that He delights in me.

Perhaps there are some aspects, some depths of God's love that I won't begin to understand without expressing them to others. Until I learn to act in love to even the most difficult souls He's placed in my life, can I begin to grasp the way He loves my most difficult soul? It's His Spirit that can make me able to love them, the same Spirit that serves as a seal of His love for me.

I've held God at arm's length or farther recently, and circumstances haven't been bringing me closer to reaching for Him. Sunday morning was a perfect storm of busyness: my worship experience consisted of seeing baptisms and receiving of new members, singing a song, and praying a prayer. That's not enough.

Thankfully, overcast and sillypilgrim visited my church and were a real blessing to me. I loved catching up with them and seeing my virtual friends in flesh-and-blood, meeting and talking with my other friends. If it had just been the four of us (Randall was along for the morning, a well-behaved charmer of a lad), I still would have had an outstanding time.

This morning I listened to the sermon over and over. Powerful. Maybe I needed to hear it more than once, which I likely wouldn't have done had I been able to stay in the service. John's talk of Christians absorbing the sin of others reminded me of talks I've had with journeyto. I'll probably listen some more this week.

Meeting tonight, so my plan is to work straight through until we wrap around 21:00. That's usually easier than shifting out of work mode then shifting back—it makes rest less of a tease. From a work perspective, it's been a good day and I can continue to get set for the busy week ahead.

For now, it's a few moments of quiet music, tea, and reconnecting with my identity in Christ. Busyness is one enemy of that truth's full realization; my flesh is another. But it's still true. My Abba is faithful to forgive me, to delight in me, to sing over me and remind me than I am His son.

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I just wrote about this a little in my journal. That *taking in* of someone's sin. The word absorb seems to be used in the capacity we've been using it in a few places now.
Signalling to the children to stand as close as possible, so that their faces were actually tickled by its whiskers, Mr. Beaver said in a low whisper. "They say that Aslan is on the move—perhaps has already landed."

And now a very curious thing happened. None of the children knew who Aslan was, but the moment the Beaver had spoken they felt different. At the name of Aslan each one of the children felt something jump in its inside.

—C.S. Lewis, The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe


If you have time, you might want to give a listen.
Isn't it amazing how the further we walk down the road with God, the more we realize how much we truly fall short of being his faithful servants?
I just read your bio page with the link to the Dept. of Readiness pics. What a hoot. Your comments are PERFECT!
Oh, I only wish I had come up with those comments! That page makes me laugh every time!
The phrase "eat sin" is what really hit home for me. The visual had a lot more impact even than "absorb". To eat someone's sin implies an act of will, something that requires some effort, whereas "absorb" seems more passive. Very, very convicting.
This came up in Community Group tonight, too (Stephen's forgiveness of his murderers at the end of Acts 7). Powerful.