Maximillian Amadeus Banzai (banzai) wrote,
Maximillian Amadeus Banzai

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Drawing near

Am I allowing my spiritual life to waste away, or am I focused, bringing everything to one central point—the atonement of my Lord? Is Jesus Christ more and more dominating every interest of my life?

Oswald Chambers, My Utmost for His Highest (7 June,"The Greatest Source of Power")

One of my hopes in moving, and with hope the greatest one, is that I'll use the opportunity of a fresh start to become closer to God, to draw near to Him who gave so much to draw near to me. It's the simplest thing in the world, reducing more and more of my life down to that one single thing, that One Person. And I have the most powerful help in the world in the person of the Holy Spirit.

Jesus' parable of the soils (Matthew 13:1-9, 18-23; Mark 4:1-9, 13-20; Luke 8:4-15) is telling—"as they go on their way they are choked by the cares and riches and pleasures of life." Not that life isn't to be cared about or enjoyed. But too often I'm "going on my way," putting myself in a position to be choked rather than abiding. Thank God for His grace in making me long to breathe again. I am not abandoned. It is not my faithfulness , but Christ's that wins God's favor. May His life be formed in me as I learn to abide, as I obey.

Yesterday's fullness was good, if a bit dizzying. Met up with happy2beso between morning and evening times at the church to catch up, show her the new place, and grab a bite to eat at Northlake Tavern. That pizza is amazing. We amused ourselves watching the World's Strongest Man competition on ESPN. They do a giant log lift. How do you top that?

Gathering of Prayer is always so good, as it was yesterday evening. I'm such a scattered pray-er, because I simply won't be still. That sounds like just an attention problem, but it's not—it reveals a lot about where I am spiritually, what's important to me (and not), and how much I truly love others and abide in Him. I want God to change this in me, and I want to engage my will to that end.

Am I abiding? Am I taking the time to abide? What is the greatest source of power in my life? Is it my work, service, and sacrifice for others, or is it my striving to work for God? It should be none of these—what ought to exert the greatest power in my life is the atonement of the Lord.

Oswald Chambers, My Utmost for His Highest (7 June,"The Greatest Source of Power")

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