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Over coffee

Seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you
—Matthew 6:33

When we look at these words of Jesus, we immediately find them to be the most revolutionary that human ears have ever heard. "...seek first the kingdom of God...." Even the most spiritually-minded of us argue the exact opposite, saying, "But I must live; I must make a certain amount of money; I must be clothed; I must be fed." The great concern of our lives is not the kingdom of God but how we are going to take care of ourselves to live. Jesus reversed the order by telling us to get the right relationship with God first, maintaining it as the primary concern of our lives, and never to place our concern on taking care of the other things of life.

Oswald Chambers, My Utmost for His Highest (21 May, "Having God's 'Unreasonable' Faith")

I need this to sink into my heart. I need to stop being a rebel and a jerk.

Not a thing scheduled for today. May go check out an apartment in Wallingford later, though the appeal of moving has greatly diminished. I don't know what I want.

Going to get wet walking home. You'd think I'd know better. That applies across the board.


there's something very warming about hitting victrola on rainy days.
Packed house this morning. Sorry I missed you, but I'm glad we both enjoyed that little slice of heaven today.
I didn't make it out there till the late afternoon. I'll be returning tomorrow at some point for more studiez
Ouch. Oooh, that one cut to my very soul! Just yesterday, Dave & I prayed for the money so he could see the Dr. about my elbow. And he was very honest with God, saying how difficult it would be to do missions if that meant having to miss work (and therefore income). Ouch. When will we be willing to put God's Kingdom first??

(I'm e-mailing this to Dave. He needs to read it, too.)
I see the point, but on the other hand, what use is it to try to be "more spiritual" than I really am?

My prayer of "Thy will be done" is nothing but an insult to God, if it's just lip service backed up by anxiety and grumbling over a perceived need.
Yup. When we're in that space, I believe the best way to seek first His Kingdom is to pray for repentance. That's necessary for the Kingdom to advance (hence John the Baptist's message of repentance preparing the way for Christ's bringing the Kingdom), and God knows we need our hearts changed. How spiritual I really am is up to Him, if I'm willing to yield to Him instead of being stiff-necked.