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Getting it

Something I don't give much thought to, at least here, is romantic relationships. For whatever reason, I've been intermittently preoccupied with them during the past few days. No clear cause; just a noticing of couples everywhere—from the couple upstairs to lunching with a couple and likely couple-to-be today, to watching silly antics on High School Reunion (how's that for shallow, journeyto?). Many times, my sentiment is along the lines of, "I don't get it." But there are moments when I get it, when I see something in the companionship, whether it's brief or committed, that I find myself missing. I get why we sometimes settle for less than we deserve, or dive into situations that are unhealthy or destructive just for some hint or shadow or echo or hope of connection. I get why people hop into bed with each other, or make another person the center of their universe, or decide to commit to one another, or swear off on the whole thing.

My preoccupation doesn't change my circumstances or what the best things for me to do (and not do) are. It's been part of my moodiness, which is so far from seeking His Kingdom first that it's not even funny. I don't want to despise the gift of singleness I've been given in this season. But I get it, and maybe that's important.

Back to eating my dinner—I'm not in a bad mood; I'm just processing.

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GOD's will in all things. nothing can top what HE has for you.
Yeah, that hope of connection is vital. Too many people settle for a connection with another person instead of seeking a connection with God, as you have done. When I sought a deeper connection with Him, He introduced me to Dave. Keep seeking God. :)
I'm in a funny place right now because I'm technically part of a couple, but it's long distance, so in practical every day life I feel single... and I've been single for so long that I don't naturally fall into a Couple Mode.
I think this is good... and I think it's good that you don't always "get" the couple thing because it shouldn't be a role to slip on, but something that becomes part of you only when you're in a progressively "couple" relationship.

I don't know if that makes sense.
But even in my non-singleness, I still am afforded so much amazing time alone with God- like devoted solitude. And I treasure it so much!

I've been reading these old books by Charlotte Bronte and she has a running theme of Painful Singleness running through. The single woman was a pathetic and pittied thing. It makes me so grateful that I actually enjoy my singleness (although diminishing) and if it weren't for Dave, I would see it as my preferred future.
We are all alone but for Christ.

I feel like I'm just talking away. Mostly I've missed being able to read what you have to say and I wanted to say hello.