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Out of the groove

mood: discontent discontent
Very out of my groove and uncomfortable with that. People and busyness each seem to be drawing double portions of my time and energy; when have moments to myself, I'm fried and useless. Want to look forward with hope but without foolish optimism, to have a sense of both the prize and the finish line grounded in the reality of the gospel rather than my wishes. That takes effort and discipline to sustain; I have been faithful investing neither.

Vision meeting for Community Group leaders this morning; turnout was better than I had expected. These are the kinds of surprises I need. Heading out in a few to go to the open house at The Upper Room, our church's artists' cooperative downtown. Looking forward to surprising them with a bottle of champagne to celebrate the occasion; not looking forward to having yet another activity on my schedule, filled with people and noise.

I really want to feel like myself again.

Posted on Mar. 6th, 2004 at 04:37 pm | | Communicate | 4 communications |

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bonsaye

"I really want to feel like myself again."

With you there. But I'm not sure that's the way it works. Can we ever go back to the old -- to the comfortable -- knowledge of ourself? Or, rather, does every stretch of self mold a new person and grow us in faith?
Posted on Mar. 6th, 2004 08:02 pm (UTC) | | Thread | Reply

banzai

Hadn't considered it philosophically; it's just my feeling.
Posted on Mar. 6th, 2004 08:05 pm (UTC) | | Parent | Thread | Reply

bonsaye

Oop. Sorry.
Posted on Mar. 7th, 2004 07:05 pm (UTC) | | Parent | Thread | Reply

banzai

No worries; sometimes it's good to just let myself feel my feelings without dodging into analysis. Nothing wrong with a little humanity now and then.
Posted on Mar. 7th, 2004 09:13 pm (UTC) | | Parent | Thread | Reply