Maximillian Amadeus Banzai (banzai) wrote,
Maximillian Amadeus Banzai

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Follow the white rabbit?

Some friends are going to see The Matrix at Cinerama tonight. I'm planning to go-- don't really want to, but I keep telling myself that it would be good to be out with people.

Rough, rough day at work, and I'm so very overwhelmed. I've gotten a ton of feedback recently telling me I haven't been doing so hot in dealing with other people or in making the best decisions. It's hard to take after a while. I like to be liked, and while I'm willing to piss people off for a reason, I hate the thought that I've been randomly hurting people like a bull in a china shop. Being a bit of a failure is no picnic, either.

Hearing the truth is a cause for hope, but it really, really hurts. We'll see if I end up heading to the movie or not.

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