Maximillian Amadeus Banzai (banzai) wrote,
Maximillian Amadeus Banzai

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Treasuring up

The process of being made broken bread and poured-out wine means that you have to be the nourishment for other people’s souls until they learn to feed on God. They must drain you completely— to the very last drop. But be careful to replenish your supply, or you will quickly be utterly exhausted. Until others learn to draw on the life of the Lord Jesus directly, they will have to draw on His life through you. You must literally be their source of supply, until they learn to take their nourishment from God. We owe it to God to be our best for His lambs and sheep, as well as for Him.

Oswald Chambers, My Utmost for His Highest (9 February, "Are You Exhausted Spiritually?")

Ironic that this encouragement would come in a peaceful time, when I feel more rested and energetic. Good to remember that in war, the peaceful moments are times of waiting and preparation, even as they are also to be savored.

Also good to know there are explanations, definitions, languages, purpose for my experiences, for who I am. Not that this has been in doubt; that's no small grace. I'm surprised only by what I've overlooked, but knowing my penchant for digging in, the very fact that I've missed these pieces until now is unlikely to be accidental. Some gifts were meant to be given rather than simply discovered. I am thankful, alongside a myriad of other feelings.

No Community Group tonight, as we are having a potluck at the boys' place in Wallingford this Saturday (bubble window!). It's easier for me to relax when I know there'll be a stretch of time in which to do so. Four uncommitted nights in a row (Saturday through tonight) is almost unprecedented. No wonder I've felt so rested.

Wow. So much.

But Mary treasured up all these things, pondering them in her heart.

—Luke 2:19

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