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In the middle

Having some rest yesterday seems to have done me some good, as today was productive at the office. Was going to drop off a deposit and tax payment at the bank before heading home, but when the #10 pulled up and opened the doors of opportunity (to go directly home) in front of me, I chose to climb aboard. Opportunity is like that sometimes and so am I. The bank errand can be done in the morning.

While working and walking, also have been doing a lot of thinking. So many of my friends are either looking forward in a spirit of excitement or looking backward with a twinge of regret– often looking at the very same things. How much of our time is spent in worlds of what could be or what could have been? Neither exercise is wrong or bad; both can become idolatrous. Faithfulness is walked out now, rooted in a faith from promises past and reaching toward the hope of promises yet to come.

Yet sometimes, I do wish my friends could see with one another's eyes. I want to warn half of them of catastrophe unforseen and help the other half recover from losses suffered. Neither half is positioned to lend me much ear, and truthfully, I don't have as much to give as I'd like. But He does, so I pray that He will speak and reveal, open eyes and unstop ears, here and now.

Life can't be lived in the past or the future. I've tried both, sometimes at once. But I'm tied to now, tied with questions: What is God supposed to do with all of this? What is He doing with it? And what am I supposed to do in the middle? There's hope in those questions, too. For now, I just keep walking.


Faithfulness is walked out now, rooted in a faith from promises past and reaching toward the hope of promises yet to come.

Precisely what I needed to hear today. Thanks :)
I hear you. Only recently have I determined myself to be content where I am and enjoy the blessings we have here. It's like I'd been waiting for our 'real life' to begin. The life we desire to have. But I've found that I need to live fully now. I've begun to feel excitement for the path God has ahead of us - whereever He leads us. I'm looking forward to seeing how He has put things into place for us along the way.

In our life group we've been talking about desire - living the life we've always dreamed of (a quote from The Journey of Desire). That God gives us desires which guide us to live fully in Him. The problem I think we(the general we) have is having discernment to know where our desires and God's will meet. When we are supposed to be content vs. when our desires should lead us to change. I'll probably post more about this in my own journal at a later point. A cool point was made this week though - that those who live their lives according to duty, say like the Pharisees, They knew so much about the law but it hardened their hearts. They weren't as blessed as those who sought Jesus with everything they were - like the lepers, the people he healed. Our faith itself is born out of a desire for a relationship with Jesus, a desire for heaven, and something better than we have without Him.

*did i get a little longwinded there?*