Sick and tired of being sick and tired so much of the time. It's a rotten attitude I carry with me too often. Remembering the truth, having faith, believing the gospel results in an underlying spirit of gratitude in all circumstances. Indeed, how can it not?
Don't want to fake it, however. There's no life in that, none at all, and my bitter parts will simply grow more bitter and ugly by the day if I (continue to) try to live by pretense. It's going to require that I be with God and ask Him to be with me, something I desperately long for and am desperately afraid of.
Back at the church now, so time to go.