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The day in review

Bummer #1: I got bummed about the silliest thing in the world just before heading to the movie. On my way out, one of my neighbors stopped me and asked what I did for a living, as she and her boyfriend were curious. I told her, and she said "Oh, we thought maybe you had some cool job like a game designer or something because of all the cool stuff in your apartment." It was a total compliment, meant as such, and yet I couldn't help thinking, "Man, I wish I was as cool as that!"

Fun: As expected, I did see Planet of the Apes at the Cinerama today. I think the matinee was the way to go— reminded me of the fun of the originals.

Weird: I ended up running into Seth and Shannon at the movie. The weird part is that I was going to go with them yesterday but ended up getting busy at work. They weren't able to see it yesterday, either, and even though I came into a 90% full theater at the last minute, there was one seat next to them.

Bummer #2: Again, not a real bummer per se— I did my semi-annual clothes shopping. 6 shirts, 4 pairs of khakis, 2 pairs of jeans, and a pair of casual pants for just under $300. A good deal, certainly, but the combination of spending that much money, navigating through sometimes rude shoppers, and the inevitable body image garbage just left me feeling a little down.



I don't know you at all, but I sense that maybe you need a little external change. Of course, I could be wrong. You ought to be joyful. Why do we find that so hard? God bless you.

Re: change

I don't think you're wrong at all-- I've edged burnout for at least the past year, and I'm now in the maelstrom of figuring out some of those needed changes and trying to be faithful to them. I functioned in survival mode for long enough that feeling my feelings, even the small ones, can be overwhelming and out of whack.

This clay is stubborn and dry in many places. Thankfully, there is Living Water.