–Oswald Chambers, My Utmost for His Highest (8 July, "Will To Be Faithful")
Seen a lot of God over the past few days.
On Monday morning, He took me on a walk. My office keys fell from my pocket while praying outside with Chad and Shannon at our monthly Gathering of Prayer Sunday evening, so I needed to go retrieve them. Along the way, I noticed all the signs for lost pets posted on poles. The thought crossed my mind (which I now suspect was from Him), “What if we put even this much effort into finding those who are truly lost?” If we could even love the world as well as some love their pets, it’d be a start.
Tonight was time with Annette, Heather, and Nate, charting a course for the multiplication of our Community Group. Been excited for this time for a while, and as it got closer, I felt long-unused gifts for teaching and leading kicking in. Administration is something I can do competently, but there are things that are more deeply me that I've let myself grow distant from. Fear. I'm glad He's bringing me forth again. We prayed and talked about our hopes and values for our own time and relationships with one another as leaders. Just as children are meant to know love and security anchored in the love relationship of their parents— indeed, just as believers know love and security anchored in the love relationship of the Father and the Son— our groups will come to know what it means to be a community anchored in the relationships we build as their leaders.
I've a bit of fearfulness when it comes to taking on leadership. I know a part of me craves the recognition, esteem, and power. The temptation to make that an idol will always be present, too. Gifts are like that, I think: those most powerfully present exist side by side with the danger of being twisted and abused. One can push them away in fear of the danger, but this is faithlessness, unbelief. The faithful path is to walk in continual dependence and trust in the Spirit who gives these gifts and to abide in the community that is the Body of Christ.