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At Victrola after enjoying the first installment of "Colloque Wheel" I've attended. It's a monthly reading of prose and poetry by the authors and lasted about an hour. Sometimes I think—no, I'm sure—that people are simply in love with the sound of words. And not just the sound of words, but the sound of their words. There is, of course, a longing to be heard, but sometimes I suspect an even greater longing to speak, to say, to have our selves make noise regardless of a listener (even though a listener is needed for the affirmation and acceptance that drives us). The endeavor is terribly self-involved and terribly human. Coming away from an art event like this one, I know the socially acceptable response is to be affected, yet I am not. It's the difference between sex and masturbation.

(Did I just say that?)

The fun part is, the above is all about me. In writing here, where others can read or not, there's hardly a difference. Perhaps I am not so separate, or not separate at all. Perhaps I'm not giving it a chance. Notorious for that.

Avaldus was released today: Exhibit B that I am not so very different.

In case it hasn't shown, I'm in a fairly cavalier mood today. Caring too much about too much hasn't been working well. Think I'm a better man when I'm more playful, have a better perspective on the world and my place in it. There's not much that's worth taking too seriously, and much of that with joy.

Maybe I can remember that tomorrow.

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"Sometimes I think—no, I'm sure—that people are simply in love with the sound of words. And not just the sound of words, but the sound of their words."

that's where a real writer runs into trouble, when they can't get past that self-obsession. i had a writing teacher say that we're so much easier on ourselves as writers than we are with other writers. but why should anyone listen to what you have to say? that's why you better darn well be saying something substantial under those pretty-sounding words.
"Think I'm a better man when I'm more playful, have a better perspective on the world and my place in it."

I agree! I'll say a prayer that you will be able to keep that in mind.