Maximillian Amadeus Banzai (banzai) wrote,
Maximillian Amadeus Banzai

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Mood uncooperative

A fine day, objectively, but my mood won't cooperate. It wants to be sad, or angry, or both; to make small things out of big things and big things out of small. It tells me terrible things about myself and my life, needling me with insecurity and regret.

But none of that is the truth. Oh, no.

"Grace on Tap" tonight at Conor Byrne. Doesn't take a therapist's insight to tell that I'm not in the mood. There are times to gut it out, and a pint or two in a dark room with live music is hardly the worst way to do so. Julie Lowry is playing again; the last time she played, was in a similar mood and wrote "Inconsolable". Funny how things work.

It'd be easier to get lost in the smaller story and trade it for the bigger one. Safer, too. Don't.
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