Maximillian Amadeus Banzai (banzai) wrote,
Maximillian Amadeus Banzai

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Return to unwelcome territory

Strange day. Started out fine, but around midday, while I was at Victrola, something hit me, hard, and crashed inside. One of those emotional things I don't have a ready explanation for (no objectively discernable cause). Since then, I've been pretty non-functional, frozen, paralyzed. There are things I have to do tonight, and I can't find the internal resources or reserves to do them.

This has happened to me before, a few months ago (oddly, starting on a Saturday: I wrote about it here and here), and God got me through it. Have to pray and trust that He'll do it again. Feel like a dead man walking right now.

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