February 17th, 2007


Clearing the decks

Seattle is gorgeous today (sunny and 60s). The only downside of the sunshine is that exposes how dusty I've allowed my apartment to become, and I in turn get overwhelmed and lazy about cleaning. If these little exercises in anxiety are the worst part, I'm doing just fine.

Just surfed to Target's site and saw this headline: "Baby Sale at Target." They sell babies?

God is (still) working on me in regard to time. I look at the schedule for next week, get a knot in my stomach, and want to freak out. But a big part of the truth is I'm selfish and simply don't want to give away that much of my time, nor do I want to be responsible for using the rest of it wisely. I'm a big believer in margin, but many times, I just want it so that I can be sloppy and/or indulgent, rather than truly resting or letting it be reallocated at God's whim. He's working, but it's tough, and I have to push past the feeling in my gut and hang on by faith. It's worth it.

Lent is coming next week. Haven't decided what my discipline/fast will look like, but am excited to clear out some space for God to fill.