February 3rd, 2007


Lagging behind

Feels like I'm lagging behind at least a day or two on almost everything in my life. Nothing crisis level—just enough to feel constant low-level pressure and guilt in the background. Life is like this, I remind myself, and much of the time I may be the only one who knows I'm not quite up to speed.

If work this week was any indication, I'm not the only one who's running behind. Nearly everything that came my way was late or, at its earliest, at the very last minute (and some things I simply had to do myself). Lots of scrambling and not nearly enough lead time for proper review, which led to a few disconnects. If we were an administratively thorough office, that might not get us quite as snarled, but as it is, it really is important for me to review and revise information before it goes public. I don't mind at all—it's what I do and it matters. But it's harder without any lead time, with each project preempting the prior one, and with the regular, weekly work (which can't be put off) slipping through the cracks. In hindsight, I think I did a pretty good job of keeping the train on the tracks (it didn't feel that way at the time), but I don't want to have to do that at that pace regularly. Even so, work is work, and frustration is part of the package.

It's far from all being frustrating, though. The tougher weeks are good because they get me thinking about how we can do things better. I like that. And with any wisdom at all on my part, they can get me moving on things I can do better on my own—new rhythms and processes that streamline and shift work around bottlenecks. Heaven knows there's lots of room for me to improve, and that can make the rest far more manageable.

Today I hope to finish an online banking training module, get a couple of appointments scheduled, catch up on reading, and, time permitting, knock out some standard keeping-in-touch stuff. It'd be nice to end the day with a little less lag.