May 9th, 2005


Clearing the meme deck

Before writing more, I wanted to honor a meme request from penfold_x:

1) Total number of films I own on DVD/video:

41 VHS (plus the original Star Trek series); 7 DVD (none of which I have purchased)

2) The last film I bought:

What About Bob? (I bought it to use in a presentation)

3) The last film I watched:

At the theater: Sin City
At home: Garden State

4) Five films that I watch a lot or that mean a lot to me:

Donnie Darko
12 Monkeys
Garden State
The Long Kiss Goodnight

5) Tag 5 people and have them put this in their journal:

  • Current Mood
    curious curious

Responsibility costs

Satan, who I believe exists as much as I believe Jesus exists, wants us to believe meaningless things for meaningless reasons. Can you imagine if Christians actually believed God was trying to rescue us from the pit of our own self-addiction? Can you imagine? Can you imagine what Americans would do if they understood over half the world was living in poverty? Do you think they would change the way they live, the products they purchase, and the politicians they elect? If we believed the right things, the true things, there wouldn't be very many problems on earth.

But the trouble with deep belief is that it costs something. And there is something inside me, some selfish beast of a subtle thing that doesn't like the truth at all because it carries responsibility, and if I actually believe these things I have to do something about them. It is so, so cumbersome to believe anything. And it isn't cool. I mean it's cool in a Reality Bites, Welcome to Sarajevo, Amnesty International sense, but that is only as good as dreadlocks. Chicks dig it to a point, but you can't be all about it; you also have to want a big house and expensive clothes because in the end, our beliefs are about as enduring as seasonal fashion. In the end, we like Ethan Hawke even though we don't know what he believes. Even our beliefs have become trend statements. We don't even believe things because we believe them anymore. We only believe things because they are cool things to believe.

—Donald Miller, Blue Like Jazz

Intended to post this snippet last night, but got too tired and sidetracked. Now I've read further on and have different bits to wrestle around (probably in writing). This is still weighty enough to stand on its own, however, so the rest will just have to keep for a while.
  • Current Music
    Chet Baker, "How High The Moon"