May 11th, 2004


"Love one another"

He is saying, "I will bring a number of people around you whom you cannot respect, but you must exhibit My love to them, just as I have exhibited it to you." This kind of love is not a patronizing love for the unlovable—it is His love, and it will not be evidenced in us overnight. Some of us may have tried to force it, but we were soon tired and frustrated.

Oswald Chambers, My Utmost for His Highest (11 May, "Love One Another")

That's convicting. Lately, I've mostly felt that lack of respect, the frustration and weariness that comes of forcing "love." Every idiosyncracy is like fingernails drug across a chalkboard. I want people to get over themselves because I refuse to get over myself.

In this area and others, hope is hard for me to reach. I believe; help my unbelief.
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Observing my Tuesday afternoon tea ritual. The bus ride over was about a billion times more enjoyable than last week's. Spent all of today out of the office as well; didn't feel so hot when I woke up, so made the call.

Feeling better in small steps. Peace doesn't lie in answers for everything.