April 25th, 2004


The way I walk

Many of us suffer from the unbalanced tendency to "be ready" only "out of season." The season does not refer to time; it refers to us. This verse [2 Timothy 4:2] says, "Preach the Word! Be ready in season and out of season." In other words, we should "be ready" whether we feel like it or not. If we do only what we feel inclined to do, some of us would never do anything. There are some people who are totally unemployable in the spiritual realm. They are spiritually feeble and weak, and they refuse to do anything unless they are supernaturally inspired. The proof that our relationship is right with God is that we do our best whether we feel inspired or not...

...If you make a god out of your best moments, you will find that God will fade out of your life, never to return until you are obedient in the work He has placed closest to you, and until you have learned not to be obsessed with those exceptional moments He has given you.

Oswald Chambers, My Utmost for His Highest (25 April, "'Ready in Season'")

One of those mornings when I look back and think, "Man, I really don't like who I've been these last couple of days." Objectively, it's a right conclusion. Denying sin and repentance are mutually exclusive. Denial has nothing to offer, but repentance brings forgiveness. God, give me that.

A flyer for a garage sale up the street advertises "a few well-preserved strands of Donald Trump's magical hair." I love my city.

Had a dream set in high school gym class last night, but I changed the cast of characters. Strange.

I really need to stop being such a jerk.

If we say we have fellowship with him while we walk in darkness, we lie and do not practice the truth. But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus his Son cleanses us from all sin. If we say we have no sin, we deceive ourselves, and the truth is not in us. If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. If we say we have not sinned, we make him a liar, and his word is not in us.

—1 John 1:6-10
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    Morcheeba, "Part Of The Process"

Jesus made breakfast for failures like me

Lunched at the Bagel Deli; saw a sign behind the counter entitled "Tips for Opening" and thought of taci.

John preached a great sermon on John 21:1-14 that can be heard here. Jesus made breakfast for failures like me. Whoa. When I don't see Him for who He is, no wonder I have trouble loving Him enough to obey.

A couple of diagnostic questions from this morning's sermon: Is there anything I'm attempting in my life that requires God to come through? Who gets the credit?
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I'm an idiot, but I'm not as dumb as these people

So I'm watching High School Reunion again, because I'm a huge frickin' idiot. This guy (re)proposes to his ex-wife and mother of his kids (high school sweethearts, married because she was pregnant, yadda yadda). All good—the redemption and restoration of marriage is a beautiful, wonderful, excellent thing. But this guy's proposal peaked something like this:
...and I can't promise you success, but I promise I'll give you 100 percent...
OK, musclehead, this isn't the coach's pep talk at the big game. 100 percent?! Get real. Nobody gives anyone 100% all the time, not even themselves. This is the kind of bullshit that made you end up in a doomed marriage the first time.

Now we're at the end, and everyone is talking about how they accomplished their goals, broke their stereotypes, and all that rot. Again, all fine and good, except the beautiful successful people are talking about how the geek taught them that looks and intellect don't matter. Wait a minute, isn't that just another insult?

Yeah, I watched it. I'm the idiot.
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