April 4th, 2004


Sadness that should not be in my eyes

And someday in the mist of time
When they asked me if I knew you
I'd smile and say you were a friend of mine
And the sadness would be lifted from my eyes
Oh when I'm old and wise

Alan Parsons Project, "Old and Wise"

Hitting the edge of another Sunday funk. What is that? I'm impatient and given to self-pity. Getting to where I don't want to listen to my heart a lot of the time. There's probably some wisdom in that, but also terrible danger. I don't want to be a dead man; I know what it's like. That's important to remember.

Gathering of Prayer in an hour—a good time to try to empty me of me.
  • Current Mood
    melancholy melancholy

All will be well

All will be well, and all will be well, and all manner of things will be well.

—Julian of Norwich

God's Spirit was on the move at our Gathering of Prayer. So many common themes pointing to a single Author. He is committed to advancing His Kingdom, in love and in power. I am more assured of this than ever.

Mind and heart are full of convictions and ideas. Tried to share some with friends after the meeting, but when another friend interrupted midstream asking if anyone wanted to get something to eat, my passion was instantly forgotten by all but one. It made me feel small. She listened to the remainder while the others made social plans, noting that slights like these are rarely malicious. I told her the truth: I prefer malice to negligence in my relationships. I know how to deal with enemies, but not with friends when they don't care. All is and will be well; it's just how I feel in those moments.

Thoughts and prayers continue apace; some action will flow from them tomorrow, no doubt. Aslan is most certainly on the move.
  • Current Music
    Mike + The Mechanics, "Silent Running"