October 3rd, 2003


Kicking against the goads

Work frustrations are occupying my thoughts until I don't want to think anymore. Not grounded as I ought be; things look way bigger than they are. Even though I know that, I still feel stuck and can't see clear. Why won't things work, why don't people think, and why can't I be better?

Glad it's grey and foggy. Sun and heat would really piss me off right now. Would like more time and the discipline to spend it better. Hate that I'm being an ungrateful jerk whose eyes are clenched shut to the beauty God has placed in his life.
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