June 11th, 2003


OSQ: High

Today has had a higher-than-average Objective Suckitude Quotient (OSQ). Here's why:
  • My PowerBook is totalled. Repairs will cost in the ballpark of $800, and I've only owned it just over a month. Kyle at PowerBookResQ knocked off $50 out of sheer pity. If pity could be easily converted into currency, I'd have already made myself a rich man.
  • I'm stalling on a couple of meetings that people are trying to set up. My rationale is a bit complex—in a nutshell, I know too much, resulting in being able to see how future dominoes may tip, causing said meetings to be largely or wholly irrelevant. Having a low tolerance for the unnecessary, I'd prefer to keep said meetings from occurring until I'm sure they'll be worthwhile. But I can't tell the others what's on my mind, because they don't (yet) know what's up. Variation on a thematic dilemma of being me.
  • It's 14:30 and I've gotten little work accomplished. Staff meetings on Wednesdays knock the wind out of the day. I'd be a smarter man to just figure on that.
  • Woke up later than I should have, so I haven't enjoyed the devotional time I need to be centered and charged.
Good news is:
  • The work day is passing, whether I get things done or not.
  • My PowerBook will be back in my hands tomorrow, regardless of what I had to pay.
  • God loves me, despite myself and with no requirement beyond Christ's blood. The fact that I genuinely miss time with Him speaks of His grace.
  • My life and work are pretty frickin' cool, even if they can be frustrating and uncomfortable.
  • Current Music
    Fear of Little Men


The moon is shining brightly in my window. I love that.

Resumed Enterprise night with taci and Connor (and Olympia hot pepperoni pizza); Sara arrived after it ended and stayed to watch the end of Austin Powers with Connor and me. There's a lot I like about Connor and Sara's relationship. I'm blessed with these friendships.

Sometimes, though, I still just can't seem to understand people. Am I trying too hard or not hard enough? There are times when neither seems to get me much of anywhere. Don't know what to listen to, what to trust. It's difficult for me.
  • Current Mood
    confused confused