June 10th, 2003


Seeking and finding

". . . seek, and you will find . . . ." Get to work–narrow your focus and interests to this one thing. Have you ever sought God with your whole heart, or have you simply given Him a feeble cry after some emotionally painful experience? ". . . seek, [focus,] and you will find . . . ."

Oswald Chambers, My Utmost for His Highest (10 June, "And After That What’s Next To Do?")

Misty rain this morning. I appreciate the darkness and the cool. God's being gentle with me.

Trying to pray more. Improvement isn't difficult when the current standard has honestly been "hardly at all." I'm motivated by need, not guilt—while the distinction is subtle, it's important. Needing God and knowing it is a grace from Him.

Just drank a gingerbread latté at Victrola. Jen suggested it, saying, "it tastes like a liquid cookie." She's right—yum. It's her birthday today, I just learned. Must wish her a good one before I leave. Been terribly belated on such things lately. Relationships often take more work than I naturally put in.
  • Current Mood
    mellow mellow

Rest and reconnection

Hit lots of little random things at the office today: got a jump on some stuff I usually procrastinate and traded e-mail with Heather about the prospect of co-leading a multiplied Community Group. Bummed to learn that USE had a few thousand dollars of gear stolen yesterday, some of it irreplaceable. Hoping that Phil and I can find some ways to help, especially with the record release show this Saturday.

Got to talk with one of my ex-RAs, Abi, via IM this evening. She's coming back to Seattle for a visit, having finished her first year teaching third grade in the Rio Grande Valley with Teach for America. Sounds like it has been rewarding for her, and the experience is inspiring her to consider a doctorate in linguistics so she can write curriculum. She was surprised and happy to hear about the label and plans to attend Saturday's show.

Cooked tonight for the first time in a while. Nothing fancy; I'm a simple man in that regard. It feels good to have enough peace to do that simple thing. Having the past couple of nights to myself has been an immeasurable blessing. Sometimes even television can make me smile.

Scully: You've got that look on your face, Mulder.

Mulder: What look is that?

Scully: The kind where when you've forgotten your keys and you're trying to figure out how to get back in the house.

The X-Files, "Miracle Man"
  • Current Mood
    relaxed relaxed