October 25th, 2002



Do I see God in all of this,
or maybe all along?

—Stavesacre, "Gold and Silver"

Have some catch-up to do at the office today, but that may go quickly. Now that I know in part why I may have been led to stay home yesterday, I'm not sorry. Apparently my ability to forsee the strangest possibilities still has a hole or two in it. Humbling, among other things.

Community Group was OK last night. Things I could tell them and things I couldn't. We decided that at least once a month we'll be sharing life stories as a way to deepen our relationships. I'm excited and glad, yet what will I tell them? A cover story, most likely: something to make them laugh, to show them something that will distract them from all they aren't seeing. Misdirection. Pay no attention to the man behind the curtain.

This morning I have new questions for God.

Chapter four. What would the story be without a plot twist?
  • Current Music
    Mike + The Mechanics, "You Are the One"

Social butterfly

Just back from dinner with Grace, a relatively new friend from Community Group. Her call was a pleasant surprise and a welcome break. It's good for me to get to know new people, and Grace is intelligent and intriguing. She did her undergraduate work in molecular biology, and I think her Master's is also in biology. Currently she works for the state, evaluating emerging medical technologies for worker's compensation claims.

I am not nearly so smart.

Social obligations tomorrow: not one but two parties. Blanche even called the office today to persuade me, since I responded to her eVite with a "maybe." Apparently she bought me a pumpkin, is making desserts Martha Stewart-style, and promises that there will be many women and few men there. Quite a sales job— not sure if I'm excited or a little creeped out.

Beyond that, so much to think about, to pray about. Dear Lord, I don't want to hurt anyone. God doesn't need to show me His plan, but I sure wonder. Walking today in faith is hard.
  • Current Music
    Jeff Buckley, "Hallelujah"