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Trails of tears

When I opened my windows this morning (afternoon, in the interest of full disclosure), the bright sun didn't hurt my eyes as much. Yesterday was a hard day; I go forward without a promise that there aren't more like it ahead. That's just walking honestly, I think.

You have taken account of my wanderings;
   Put my tears in Your bottle.
   Are they not in Your book?
Then my enemies will turn back in the day when I call;
   This I know, that God is for me.

—Psalm 56:8-9

Wanderings and tears are things I've been learning more about recently. I'm glad God has a design for these. If not, I don't know how I'd have hope, how I'd deal with the fact that there's so much I can't make sense of. But He collects my tears in both a bottle and a book: they are at once precious to Him and somehow used to tell His story. It gives David hope for his future when his present was pretty confusing and bleak (he had been seized by Philistines in Gath). It's still true.

But that's not the end for our tears. This is:

Then one of the elders answered, saying to me, “These who are clothed in the white robes, who are they, and where have they come from?” I said to him, “My lord, you know.” And he said to me, “These are the ones who come out of the great tribulation, and they have washed their robes and made them white in the blood of the Lamb. For this reason, they are before the throne of God; and they serve Him day and night in His temple; and He who sits on the throne will spread His tabernacle over them. They will hunger no longer, nor thirst anymore; nor will the sun beat down on them, nor any heat; for the Lamb in the center of the throne will be their shepherd, and will guide them to springs of the water of life; and God will wipe every tear from their eyes.”

—Revelation 7:13-17


The first two verses have meant a lot to me.

I have wondered, though, about the spot of Scripture that says rain comes when God pours out the bottles of heaven. (Not sure where; it's underlined in the Bible I keep at work, so I can't get to it.) Do you think He's pouring our tears back? Or are they different bottles? I know He's God, I know He loves me, but this has been a bit disconcerting over the years....

This is my verse:
"You, O Lord, keep my lamp burning;
My God turns my darkness into light."
- Psalm 18:28 -
I'm hoping they're different bottles, though I'd be lying if I said I didn't think I'd felt the same tears more than once.


Just wanted to let you know that I added you to my friends list. It was really a great pleasure to meet you this weekend and I consider you a blessing in Winter's life. She is fortunate to have the grace of such dynamic and caring friends in her life and I am especially thankful that she has several people who care for her here in Seattle. Thanks so much for your friendship to her, as well as that which you extended to myself over the weekend! I look forward to reading more of your entries.

Re: Hello!


It was wonderful meeting you this past week. Somehow, I wasn't surprised that Winter's brother is a quality guy, and I thoroughly enjoyed both the conversation and your cooking. You're getting added to my list now. Hope the rest of your weekend was great!