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You wouldn't believe the day I'm having.

Some of the nonsense that's been coursing through segments of my church's congregation has erupted in what may become a good old fashioned church split. When I say nonsense, I mean it— the "problems" make no sense. Groundless, vague accusations and polarizing battle lines drawn in the sand. It might even seem to be about theology, except that Jesus hasn't been mentioned in the endless debate for some time. Some have, at least in part, forgotten Christ and thus forgotten the church and their own best selves.

For my part, I am often irritated and confused, yet largely calm. My hope was never in any of these people in the first place— it is only in Him. This is far from the only instance where my path is turning in an unusual direction. My wisdom is rubbish in this territory, yet here I am nonetheless. I pray I'm where I need to be, when I need to be, and who I need to be, and I'm immesurably grateful that it's ultimately not about me. From here, God seems quite busy.

Community Group at 19:00; should be interesting. I'm sure church affairs will be a hot topic. Nate has also taken a hard step this week: closing down communication with his close friend (who also happens to be the woman he loves) because she is in a long distance relationship with another man. They've laid all their cards on the table with one another, and this is their course for now. Not sure how much of this he'll share with the whole group, but it is a tough time for his heart.

None of this is the end of the world. I know what that looks like.


Oy.. ::HUGS:: I'm sorry to hear this. I think this is yet another reason why I tend to avoid churches. Part of me, my spirit, craves for fellowship with other Christians -- but you probably caught my rant about that a few days ago. In some ways, they can also be the quickest to judge and act superior and when wounds are inflicted in His name.. they cut deeper than anything else.
I think you're so right. And yet He calls us into community, into the Church, however broken and flawed it is, that we are also somehow His bride. It's a mystery, and if Scripture didn't guide me differently, I'd run far, far away from church some days.
I've always felt a strong pull into the ministry in some way, shape, or form -- I'm not quite sure how yet, I know my primary strength is in warfare. I just wrote it off for the longest time as being a pipe dream, a case of me getting ahead of myself. There's a lot of things I'd love to do that I can't, and I wrote myself off from anything in the ministry because I was a woman. It's not a woman's place to serve God in an active role, right? ::snerks:: Wrong.

But I wish God would give me more than just a strong urge and a skill -- I wish he'd show me how in the heck to go about doing anything, and where to go. In the meantime, I'm too annoyed by all the rules and regulations that have no Bibilical foundation -- or are created by twisting the bible around -- that I see everywhere, and therefore rather apathetic. Nothing hurts me deeper and enrages me more than having to watch my back for any incoming sneaky knives among other Christians.
pooh! Hang in there, God is in this somewhere.
I know, even though I'm almost to the point of looking between the cushions of the couch for Him sometimes. :)
You know Church is supposed to be a place that helps you to be close and worship God. And it still can be that. I do hate it when people get all in a bunch over some nonsense. It's not about being perfect. It's about being with God. Another perspective here is that I have agoraphobia and I can't go to church. Well I can but then I pull my hair out and leave a nice pile of hair on the floor. I guess that is little consolation at the moment. But my point is that it's about you and God and no one else. Did all that make sense? I kinda went around the block to go next door. lol
It did make sense, and I think you hit the nail on the head:

It's not about being perfect. It's about being with God.
In the words of one of my favorite hymns:

The Church's one foundation is Jesus Christ her Lord
She is his new creation by water and the word.
From heaven He came and sought her To be His holy bride;
With His own blood He bought her And for her life He died.

She is from every nation, Yet one o’er all the earth;
Her charter of salvation, One Lord, one faith, one birth;
One holy Name she blesses, Partakes one holy food,
And to one hope she presses, With every grace endued.

The Church shall never perish! Her dear Lord to defend,
To guide, sustain, and cherish,Is with her to the end:
Though there be those who hate her, And false sons in her pale,
Against or foe or traitor She ever shall prevail.

Though with a scornful wonder Men see her sore oppressed,
By schisms rent asunder, By heresies distressed:
Yet saints their watch are keeping, Their cry goes up, “How long?”
And soon the night of weeping Shall be the morn of song!

’Mid toil and tribulation, And tumult of her war,
She waits the consummation Of peace forevermore;
Till, with the vision glorious, Her longing eyes are blest,
And the great Church victorious Shall be the Church at rest.

Yet she on earth hath union With God the Three in One,
And mystic sweet communion With those whose rest is won,
With all her sons and daughters Who, by the Master’s hand
Led through the deathly waters, Repose in Eden land.

O happy ones and holy! Lord, give us grace that we
Like them, the meek and lowly, On high may dwell with Thee:
There, past the border mountains, Where in sweet vales the Bride
With Thee by living fountains Forever shall abide!

Press on, Seattle.
Thanks, Durham. I'm glad it's up to Him. Lots of people around here have forgotten that.