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Do I see God in all of this,
or maybe all along?

—Stavesacre, "Gold and Silver"

Have some catch-up to do at the office today, but that may go quickly. Now that I know in part why I may have been led to stay home yesterday, I'm not sorry. Apparently my ability to forsee the strangest possibilities still has a hole or two in it. Humbling, among other things.

Community Group was OK last night. Things I could tell them and things I couldn't. We decided that at least once a month we'll be sharing life stories as a way to deepen our relationships. I'm excited and glad, yet what will I tell them? A cover story, most likely: something to make them laugh, to show them something that will distract them from all they aren't seeing. Misdirection. Pay no attention to the man behind the curtain.

This morning I have new questions for God.

Chapter four. What would the story be without a plot twist?


We just recently did these "life stories" in our small group. I came up against the same story I've told a million times and realized for the first time that I never have shared the whole truth. So that's what I did. It wasn't that it was this deep dark secret, but it's the part of the story that makes people uncomfortable and exposes me.
The thing is... when I didn't share that part- when I didn't truly expose myself- people never saw what God REALLY did. When I shared the whole story- and gave adaquate floor time to the icky part, the people in my small group were really moved. Because what God did in me was truly amazing but it loses its amazingness when I sugar coat it.

Another hard part of my story is that the issues I struggled with that brought me to the Lord are issues I still struggle with. But it's the truth and instead of making people "happy" to hear a resolved (but untrue) conclusion, I actually endeared them to me by telling them that it's not over.

I don't know if this applies to your situation at all because I don't know your past... but I do know that Everyone has shameful secrets. It's hard to bare your soul, but one persons honesty opens the door to others being honest as well... and that's when everyone starts to grow.
I don't think I said that perfectly.... anyway. That's what I have to say :)