Maximillian Amadeus Banzai (banzai) wrote,
Maximillian Amadeus Banzai

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Facing where I've been a fool. My heart breaks over things that have broken the heart of God. Life, relationships, responsibilities are all too confusing. Easier not to truly care, or if I alone would bear the consequences of my risks. I have neither luxury. And I have failed.

Specks in others' eyes, logs in my own. Perhaps this realization is His call for my repentance, for my holiness. Indeed, how could it be anything else? Yet I fear I cannot bear to see more. What I've seen already makes me want to die.

I am sorry. I will likely be sorrier still.

This will be a long, hard night.

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