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On the sidewalk outside Victrola, a young man paints. His easel sits on the sidewalk without obstructing; his canvas captures a northward view of Fifteenth, including Victrola's neon sign, in burnt oranges and muted rusts. Its beauty is almost apocalyptic. Of course, I am enchanted by the vision.

Awoke this morning to discover that something happened inside me, shifted, healed. It is unexpected. I long ago stopped imposing timeframes or durations on miracles. Gifts like these are to be enjoyed, not dissected— if they are not yet eternal, they are at the very least echoes of what will be. His grace resists definition. Our understandings are always too small.

Healing means freedom. The annoying buzz of "things are not as they should be" has quieted in my soul, though the hum of "something is coming" continues (growing faster?) beneath everything. Each day I am somehow less encumbered. The relief of this latest weight leaves me feeling stronger. And weaker. More ready.

(Overheard the transgendered woman at the next table claim Jonathan Frakes is gay. Sometimes there are too many choices of where to start being disturbed.)

Work felt orderly for the first time in a while. I was more present. Doing small things, like reducing my e-mail inbox from over 120 to under 20, brought satisfaction. Nate helped at the office in the afternoon, after lunch at La Puerta.

Arriving home, I found two packages arrived for me. One, from my friend Paul in North Carolina, was the copy of Leighton Ford's Transforming Leadership I loaned him some seven years or so ago (I've since procured a hardback version). The second package was from the Independent Film Channel— turns out I won a copy of Life Without Dick on DVD. That makes the third DVD I've won in under a year, the second from the IFC. Need to get a DVD player, or win one.

Relaxing to Justice League now, a simple evening ahead. Thank you, Lord.

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yea! for healing

Amen and amen

Gifts like these are to be enjoyed, not dissected— if they are not yet eternal, they are at the very least echoes of what will be. His grace resists definition. Our understandings are always too small.

I totally hear this. Totally.


Healing means freedom. The annoying buzz of "things are not as they should be" has quieted in my soul, though the hum of "something is coming" continues (growing faster?) beneath everything. Each day I am somehow less encumbered. The relief of this latest weight leaves me feeling stronger. And weaker. More ready.

Somehow you have posted for me.

Sometimes there are too many choices of where to start being disturbed.)

This reminds me of my youth. Oh, Seattle.




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These thoughts must also be Seattle residents. Or, at the very least, best cultivated here.

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Seattle for me is like a cacoon... miraculous and necessary for strength when I later will fly.

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Although we haven't met, I find myself wishing you'd stay in the cocoon– even though I can read your journal from wherever you may write. I am silly too.

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The longer I'm here (since that time I was gone for a year) the more I love it here.
I think I hated it before because of old demons that are now losing their power.

But I go as God bids.

musicismath mentioned coming up to Seattle soon... maybe a group event is in order??

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We should! I'm a bonehead for not responding to this sooner– when you first posted it, I was so excited that I thought I'd replied. But I didn't. Because I'm a bonehead.

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Ha.

Cool... I think he said he'd be up either this Sunday or the one after that... What time works best for you?

I'll have to talk to my sister and also find out when exactly he'll be up.

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As church staff, Sundays are often a mess. That being said, afternoons are best, and evenings are sometimes workable. Keep me posted...this could be cool.
Noooo!!! Not Number One! Commander Riker can't be gay!
Much of the thinking in my neighborhood can be categorized as "eccentric" and "wishful"– often both. I'm not buying it.
awesome. :) - that's my heart smiling.