Maximillian Amadeus Banzai (banzai) wrote,
Maximillian Amadeus Banzai
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Waiting?

I like gentle faces. They make the world easier.

The unsettledness and noise in my brain is becoming increasingly problematic. When I write longhand now, I leave out letters constantly. I don't communicate in complete thoughts sometimes. I don't remember what I've done, what I'm doing, or what I need to do. It's getting bad and wearing on my patience— I simply want the gathering storm to break, whatever it is.

Office time is on the docket today. My scatteredness has kept me from getting much accomplished for the past two days, and I can't let some things slide until Monday. Besides, with my vacation on the horizon, some of my work has that much more priority. Wish I could just vanish from work right now. Whatever is pressing on me isn't there.

So where is it? And what if I know, and am just trying desperately to protect myself from seeing it?
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