Maximillian Amadeus Banzai (banzai) wrote,
Maximillian Amadeus Banzai

  • Mood:

Paradox and playfulness

Of late God has pleased to keep my soul hungry almost continually, so that I have been filled with a kind of pleasing pain. When I really enjoy God, I feel my desires of Him the more insatiable and my thirstings after holiness more unquenchable.

—David Brainerd

I've smiled and even laughed this morning, yet I also know longings of heart. Like Brainerd, I'm learning the two aren't always contradictory, and are often paradoxically necessary.

Mostly, I'm enjoying. Went out with Connor and Sara; though I've been feeling socially tired, I also knew it was important to invest in those friendships before they became more casualties of my neglect. After pizza, we saw Men in Black II and rolled home around midnight.

This morning I slept a little later, then came for my extended Victrola retreat. They're installing front windows that can open, which should alleviate the sauna-esque quality on warm days. Played with some poetry writing as well— there's something life-giving about being playful with language. I'm having fun.

Sometime I hate my writing, too: snob, party of one.

  • The analog ideal and the digital real

    There’s an underlying issue that’s been bugging me on the digital vs. analog stuff I’ve seen off and on for some time. So on Facebook, I tried to lay…

  • Being the limiting resource in the rushing stream

    Last weekend was our church's annual Men's Retreat, with the theme of "Living Intentionally." Though I was only able to attend a portion of the time…

  • Losses and messes

    Hasn't been the easiest past couple of weeks. Nothing awful in the scheme of things; just a steady stream of losses and messes, departures and FUBAR…

  • Post a new comment


    default userpic

    Your reply will be screened

    Your IP address will be recorded 

    When you submit the form an invisible reCAPTCHA check will be performed.
    You must follow the Privacy Policy and Google Terms of use.