Maximillian Amadeus Banzai (banzai) wrote,
Maximillian Amadeus Banzai

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Feel awful inside. With so many things wrenching my heart, I can't even discern why I feel as I do anymore. It could be any of the crises, or all of them. Tried calling home. Tried watching television. Tried talking with my best friend. Tried a meal. Tried nearly every (former) comfort zone I can think of, but the ache is still with me.

What I really want, as weak as it is, is to hold someone, to reassure each other over and over that everything's going to be okay. That's not going to happen.

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